my scars glisten more in the moonlight.

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After stumbling through the typical growth spurts that are infantry, childhood, adolescence, and young twenties, I can say that at this exact moment in time, I am pleased with my evolution.

Of course, I am nowhere near finished– and I will not be till God calls my soul home with Him.

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But what I do know, is that this skin I am in on this Earth is comfortable. It is relaxed. The steaming hot water spewing from the faucet onto my tender, scarred skin no longer startles me. I am collected; my mind is at ease. I now know what tranquility means and feel no guilt when spelling it out in my daily life.

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Embracing the mess the effects of the universe have thrown at me, this has been so vital. I now have an infatuation with brooms, mops, and cleaning supplies. My body and mind have their own go-to protocols for how to react to a dirty situation. And they are not with more dirt. Any smudge or smear will not go without attention.

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I am divine–the thickest layer of hard-working grime that has thrived in the illumination of the moon and still glistens. My process has been uneasy, my reaction to it, jagged. Yet I have learned to smooth the rough pieces of me that should be kept, just refined.

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I am…a steel spine with no bra. Raw, shared senses with other enlightened walkers and breathers. It is just absolutely amazing.

 

 

photos by Devin Mazza Photography

5 Comments

  1. That was a beautiful post .. and my favorite part, ” I am divine–the thickest layer of hard-working grime that has thrived in the illumination of the moon “

  2. Saw your modeling work in IG and decided to see what the fight was all about and I salute you. My wife found out she had stage 3 breast cancer in 2013 when she had just turned 28. She had to get her right breast removed and went through a year of chemo. Today we just finished her 2nd reconstruction surgery. And we are joyful. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope to work with you on a project one day.

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